Consistency.

Consistency is the degree of adherence to anything or the ability to keep repeating, redo or reproduce some action and in way it is  actually the process of making an act into a habit.

"You never eat your vege." 

"You always be there for me."

"I never missed their game."

"I always loved the way you smile."

"We will always be together."

"We'll never be like them."

I used to think that the words like NEVER and ALWAYS have a very strong ability in delivering the meaning of how consistent the person claim to in a particular action.

Apparently, I was wrong.

Consistent by the definition in Oxford Dictionary is an adjective describing an 

unchanging in nature, standard, or effect over time.

I missed out the most important point there.

unchanging in nature, standard, or effect OVER TIME. 

Time is the playmaker.

So let me change the sentences,

"You always be there for me UNTIL.. dot dot dot........."

"I always loved the way you smile BEFORE.. he came and then everything has changed" *hahaha.. sorry over pula*

"We will always be together UNTIL......"

You get what I mean kan?

Can you be the most important person to somebody, yes you can,

but the real question is the time period.

How long can you be the one for him? 3 years? 2 months? 1 week? or simply until a better person come to his life?

You can be the top scorer for this week quiz but can you be sure about the next quizzes?

You can try but you'll never really sure right?

He could be a poor homeless guy today but who will he be in the next 10 years? 

Time.

The most interesting variable in our life as a human.

Everything has it's time.

Everyone has their time.

Being not consistent is  one of the thing that makes us human.

Being inconsistent at something doesn't always mean it is a negative thingy.

I mean yeah I do agree I hate it when people being inconsistent in way that they change their mind, they didn't walk their talk, they broke their promises. By the word "they" actually I am not excluded.

By being not consistent, that's also means that all the fun, awesome, enjoyable things and moments will not last forever. I agree that's sucks but hey, what last forever anyway? 

*other than God of cause*

Well,

from another point of view, it's good lah kan if people are not consistently being in a negative state.

I mean.. for example it is good if an ugly person is not consistently appear to be ugly. (hahaha.. that was a bad one.. let me try again)

It is good if someone trying not to be consistent at performing badly in something, in a way he is changing for good lah.

We'll never know what the future holds kan..

That's life.

We can always predict but until it really happens, we can only hope. 

  Be patient.

Pray for it.

for there's always a possibility. 

Chao.

Can money really buy happiness?

All my life.. I have live most of my teenage year with my friends.. I have entered a boarding school since  I was 13.. MJSC Kota Kinabalu.. I can say that most of us kinda agree on money really can bring happiness to most people.. Without money, most of the people will have a not so pleased life.. Not so fabulous.. Not so fun.. Not so everything laa.. Simply we conclude that without money your life will always have less and lack of something.. However, the more I grow the more I see.. Hence, the more I learnt.. In fact, within my family, we can't really say that we are rich.. We have been through quite a lot of hardship to get where we are now.. Not specifically I was involved but hey, I grow up hearing their stories.. Besides, I have witness myself how hard they struggle in this life.. To cut short the story, what makes me wanna write up this post is that we had a family day recently.. We had fun, we enjoy.. A lot..  At night we had this small party and in a small hall we celebrate.. We sang and dance.. Laugh and smile.. Then I notice something when I saw they danced through the song they sung.. I see them enjoying themselves.. Like really enjoying.. Like they were the king of the world.. They own the night.. They don't have much you know.. They live humbly in a small village in Kundasang, Ranau.. You know, where the mount Kinabalu (highest mountain in southeast asia) :P .. Okay back to the story.. They really don't have much.. They don't shop in Pavilion, Times square, or simply go out in the city like twice a week or well.. You know what I mean right? They don't alway have that fancy meal you had.. Just the one that people in Malaysia call "cukup2 makan~" :P .. But that night.. I assure you.. I never see people that really really enjoying life, really had a blast, really  HAPPY, like them.. Seriously.. They dance and sing as they pleased.. No worry.. Not a single frown face you can seek.. The way they laugh really makes me jealous and question myself.. Why can't I be more like them.. Stop worrying about the problem I had.. The things I have to do.. Like just live the moment.. I realize what count in determining happiness does not rely money guys.. It's depend on our heart.. As for my family, true happiness is found when the family members gather and spend time together.. Cause that's where our heart lies.. Sure money can get you a nice house and a fancy car.. It does make us feel happy.. I agree.. But it can never be the same as the joy and happiness you felt when you get to spend quality time with the one you love.. Doesn't really matters if you poor or rich.. As long as you can get through this life with the one you appriciate most.. Get through thick and thin together.. Im sure.. You can always find happiness there.. :)

Medicine as a Course?

Here's to some of my juniors who was confused on what course to choose after SPM...

Before I start I would like to implant something in your mind,

Other's opinion on any course, DOES NOT MATTER!

cause at the end,

YOU are the one that make the decision,

and YOU are the one that will face the consequences, in YOUR way.

not their's.

They might say it is boring, YOU might felt it interesting.

They might say it is hard, YOU might felt it easy.

LIFE IS ABOUT TAKING CHANCES.

Why let their thoughts scared you then?

:)

Alright, if you already get that in the mind of yours, I shall share about my life as a medical student so far.

I can only share about medical course cause it would not be fair enough if I make a comment about other courses, cause I haven't go through the other courses myself, it's like judging them without trying them myself. 

And please please again keep in mind that this is my thought, my opinion, my life as a medical student so far, not yours, not others. So, you MIGHT have it differently, others MIGHT have it differently.

Okay then.

I will start by introducing the subject that I have go through so far.

For MBBS in Taylor's so far I haven't use my calculator yet. HAHAHA. So yeah, no maths related subject.

You will have it during Foundation in Science, since it is foundation, so you will learn all science thingy, physics, math and mostly all the subject you have for your SPM, just going deeper I guess.

After you started you medical degree, not really science subject, more to medical-related science of course. We have anatomy, biochemistry, microbiology, pathology, physiology, pharmacology and all that is synonym to these. For soft skill, we have clinical skill, where we learn how to perform injection, examine patient, basically all the stuff that doctors need to practice in the clinic. We also learn communication skill, which is about doctor-patient relationship, effective communication for better diagnosis and so on.

The learning style we have is that we learn block by block, so we have foundation block (not the same with Foundation In Science), haematology & immunology block, cardiovascular block, respiratory block, gastrointestinal tract block, nervous system block and many more to come. We will have 1 theory exam paper for each block. We also have OSPE (Objective Structured Practical examination) and OSCE (Objective Structured Clinical Examination), which are quite similar as both exam test our skills and hands-on capabilities.

What I think about this course so far is that it really take GRIT to survive this course.
Well, grit is nothing but a positive trait regarding a passion or perseverance to achieve the long term goals.
In other words, it is how strong will you keep holding on to stay in track and keep on improving yourself despite of the obstacles and failure that you need to face from time to time.
I'm not going to lie. It is not easy. At some point, me myself felt so unmotivated and literally down with my studies. But b*tch please? :P I'm still here!! still fighting strong!! B)
Every time I fall, I get back up. Why? How? I left myself with that choice only.
If FALL, GET BACK UP! simple. :)
Cause I choose this course, I choose to be in this pathway. Turning back is not really my style. I rather die fighting :P
I'm not trying to set up a negative thought on this course but you should know, it is not going to be easy.
Orang melayu cakap,

BUKAN SENANG NAK JADI SENANG :)

Just try to enjoy the journey. Furtheremore, YOLO right? hahahahaha

 As I go through the course, I can see how medicine turn a first class student to a grade E student. hahahahahaha....
 Don't be so shock.
 In medicine, grade A is so rare. VERY RARE. And B is the new A. C is the new B and the list follows. Failure is common. hahahaha. Be Ready. Physically and mentally.

As a conclusion,
Medicine is not as hard as they said. It's depend. Just like the other courses. HAHAHAHAHA
Trust me, GRIT takes you everywhere. You will get through everything anything with it. Here's a link to a video regarding GRIT that might inspired you as it did to me :)

http://www.ted.com/talks/angela_lee_duckworth_the_key_to_success_grit.html

Good luck and all the best. 

XOXO,

T

It's You that are Important

Friend.

well, I kinda disappointed at this moment..

I don't know how some people that we called as "friend" can easily turn back on us. But what hurt the most is that in front of us, they act like everything is fine like "i'll always got your back" thingy.

Whatever reason you are having back there girl, just make sure it will worth it. Cause it still remain unsure whether you are going to marry him or not. And did you remember the time when he turn back on you? well, as long as I remember, we are the one who stood by you, did we? maybe we don't understand your love story but girl, I do respect your decision but don't forget us when you're happy with him already, don't see us as 'wrong' all the time just because you are happy with him again. make your own stand your own rational.

But still, I'm not the kind of person who's willing to lose a friendship just because I don't like your boyfriend. Please know that our friendship worth more than that to me. I don't care who is him, what you wanna do with him, what he wanted you to do, that's just totally your business.

But please, people around you does not makes you who you are. It's you yourself. You and your personality. We may stand together but still the main thing is we always represent yourself, since the moment we're born, now, and till death comes.

 We don't judge you based on your boyfriend's attitude did we? I don't even care bout him. you and him different thing, you and us different thing, cause if i were to treat you based on his attitude, I wouldn't want to talk to you, hearing you talking, tweet you, read your tweet, see your face or even let you stay at my place, yeah, that bad. The best is just to get involve with each and everything. you are not a superhero. you may get hurt. stay at your comfortable side, and let your mature lil boyfriend settle his own problem, you're not his mom. Cause we're actually try hard not to hurt you, but if we do, I'm sorry. I'm really2 sorry.

I don't know if you can talk bad about me with him, I don't wanna know but I sure do hope you don't.
just remember no matter how bad thing turn up to, you are always be a friend of mine, even if I'm not a friend of yours already.

p/s: I don't mind if you wanna report this post to him. well, just share it if you think you'll feel better. And, I'm not pointing at anybody directly, this is an indirect message, if you think it's you I'm talking bout, it could be.. hehe :)
together we can make things better. I'm working on it, and it would be better if you help me. Just give e a call alraight? :)

And, I still loveeee you my friend! (: not going to judge you, it is not my job, it's God job.. Peace..

XOXO

Be Responsible

here's a scenario:

tweet something bad bout a friend,

humiliates the friend,

other people see,

hurt the particular friend's feeling in public,

realize you are wrong,

but too scare to apologize in public,

or even too proud to say sorry in personal,

leave it that way.

what do you think bout this? share with me. 

APPLYING SCHOLARSHIP

so.. it has been a long time i haven't updated this blog.. :P
well, too busy i guess.. ahaha.. but seriously..  0.0 life as an university student is FUN, but it is not easy!!
 you have to know your limits, control yourself, manage your time!! cause being a young, wild and free 18-years-old teenager and a student at the same time is very hard to do!!  
just imagine STUDY VS ENTERTAINMENT.. so hard to maintain the academic side huh?? :/

err.. okayy.. enough complaining.. :) so, its SPM season huh... GOOD LUCK SPM CANDIDATES!!
 hehe.. can't believe it was just last year i was sitting for it.. glad its over.. :D

well, after SPM you guys may enjoy a short 'merdeka' break.. have fun! be wild! enjoy your last year of being a 'budak sekolah' i'll say.. hehehe...

for them who are excited to continue to the next stage, you guys might planned on applying for scholarship to help you to further your studies.. there are many types of scholarships that you can apply for.. but..
make sure that you guys do some research on the company or organization that offering the scholarship..(e.g. MARA, JPA and others)

get to know the terms and conditions and also the requirements to apply.. so that you know which offer scholarship that you are qualified to apply for..

for MARA scholarship, there are 2 types : PRA-SPM(for MRSM students, using trial MARA results) and POST-SPM(open for any students, using SPM results)
 
for both of these scholarships, you will be required to write an essay to convince MARA to support your studies.
To make your life easier.. :)
 Below is an essay that i wrote when i was applying for MARA PRA-SPM scholarship... it is not that great but i hope it can help you as your reference to write your own essay...

my advice?
write sincerely, do not make up any stories, tell nothing but the truth..
and make it simple but do show them you are really interested and make them believe that you will appreciate their support by working hard to achieve success..
ohh.. and don't forget to show them that you have done your research on the course and university where you are planning to further your studies.. include your study planning :)

so.. here you go..

Given the name Izatty Lim, I was born at Hospital Beaufort, Sabah on 11^th May 1994 and now aged 17 years old. I come from a family of 6, consists of my parents and 4 siblings. I am the eldest daughter of Danny Lim and Selistinah Serungin, followed by two brothers and a sister. Being the eldest taught me to be more a responsible person. I always give my very best in everything I do especially on my study as I am trying to be a role model for my siblings.

I started my first education at Tadika St Paul, Beaufort when I was 3 years old but I moved to Tadika Kung Ming, Beaufort when i was 6 years old as I wanted to learn Mandarin Chinese .I continued my primary study at SRJK(C) Kung Ming, Beaufort. Next, I had my secondary study at SM St Paul Beaufort until I receive an offer from MARA to continue my study at MJSC Kota Kinabalu on 2007. The first time I enter the school, I was very confused with everything that goes in that school as it is different than my previous schools but after a while I managed to adapt myself in this institute. Along the time I was in MJSC Kota Kinabalu, I have managed to be selected as a representative in many kind of competitions; either in sports or in academics stuff, such as Basketball State Competition 2009 and 2011, All-Malaysia MJSC Mathematic Carnival 2011, All-Malaysia MJSC Robofair 2010 and 2011. Moreover, I am also the vice president of Student Representative Council in MJSC Kota Kinabalu for the 2010/2011 session.  

Since I was a child, I looked at doctors like some kind of superhero. They work hard to save people’s life, to give people a second chance to live and spend some more time on this earth. I am a big fan of them. Looking at them working confidently with their stethoscope around their neck always make me excited. My desire to become a doctor became higher when my grandfather died of colon cancer, pneumonia and some other diseases in 2008. Once diagnosed with cancer, the doctor said that my grandfather had only a few weeks as my grandfather's cancer is at critical stage. It did broke my heart to hear those words from the doctor because if only there’s a cure for cancer of course I can still see my grandfather today. The last word from my grandfather was he wished to see me to make my family proud by becoming a doctor who is able to save the life of a person. Since then, I have promised to work hard to make the last hope of my late grandfather become true.

 I am aware that the journey to become a doctor is not easy but I believe that I am able to face all difficulties and obstacles with the support of my family. Besides, I believe all the hard work and times would be worth to spend if it is to save a one’s life. In addition, my interest on science subjects such as biology and chemistry also increase the confidence in me to take medical course for my further study and become a doctor one day. Through my view, working as a doctor is not just a job. It is a gift and also a responsibility as well. If an engineer’s job is to repairs machines, doctors do the same repairing job too. The only difference it that a doctor repairs alive machines, a doctor repairs human. That’s a very big responsibility there.

I have carved my path to become a doctor. I have done well in both of my academics and co-curricular activities to achieve my ambition. I have done well in my Trials SPM Examinations and qualified to participant in the SPC programme. At Taylor’s University, I am interested on the Foundation in Science programme. Upon successful completion of the Foundation in Science, I am planning to pursue my study at Taylor's School of Medicine. I am also looking forward to continue my study in overseas university especially at University College Dublin (UCD) in Ireland that mainly expert and focus on medical courses. My dream is to be a cardiologist.

For me, heart is a very important organ in our body. It is the central organ of the circulatory system which act as a force and suction pump in relation to the blood vessels. It directs blood to the lungs to be oxygenated, then around the body to help human being to function by sending oxygen to each of the cells inside our body. I am very interested to learn more about heart and circulatory system, that is why I wanted to be a cardiologist.

With MARA scholarship, I hope it can reduce my expanses to take medical course at Taylor’s University. Studying at Taylor’s University sure will get me one step closer to my dream. I would be very grateful to be accepted in such a great university and promised myself to work hard to achieve great results in my studies. I will try hard to achieve my dream to become a doctor with the name Dr. Izatty Lim.   

 

 ALL THE BEST :)

please have faith in me :')

well... i know that it is obvious that im not the best daughter that my parents ever had...
but dear mum and dad...
please know that you guys are my everything..

i know sometimes i talk rudely to you..
please know that i didn't mean all the stupid things that i have said... i was too emotional sometimes..
i also know that sometimes i didn't play my role know that i'll do everything as the eldest as you wanted me to...
i don't know how to be your perfect daughter like you dreamed to have...
or.. maybe i know.. but i just don't want to take a chance on that...
sometimes we, the children, just do that you know... just wanna catch your attention actually..

BUT my dearest mum and dad...
please know that i'll do everything for you...

remember the time when you asked me to do some reading before i go play with my cousins?
I really don't want to... i wanna to go out and play with them so badly..
but when i saw your eyes...
half of me know that you are putting a very high hope on me...
( the other half of me was scared to see your furious face of cause... hehe :P )

ok2... more serious this time...

i still remember when you wanted to sent me to MJSC Kota Kinabalu.. a boarding school... one of the best school in Sabah.. a great school...
BUT... did u have any idea on how hard was it for me to leave St Paul..??
any idea on how was my feelings when i have to leave my best friend? Leaving my sporty life and walk into a nerdy life..??
i bet you don't....
all the thing that is important for you is my studies and my future is it..?
its a common things for parents to worried about these things right?
i am not blaming you guys for this... :) i do appreciate all these...

in my school... im not the best student...
i only manage to get 3.5 and above on the second semester of form 2...
2010-2011, i became the vice pres of student council..
i only represent my school in a few competitions like the robofair, maths carnival, basketball games and some other..

i just curious sometimes...
i was wondering did you really thinks its easy to get all these achievement ??
if it is... then maybe it is me that don't deserve to be your daughter..
cause... i need to tell you that it was not that easy for me... Really... i really tried my best to achieve all that..
and... did you know how much i hate to study??
yup... really hate it... i don't like to spend my time to study actually..
study?? no thanks... i prefer doing sports...
i guess you guys don't know this right...
never mind... i know you guys always know whats the best for me... and i trust you with all my heart..
you want me to study hard??? so be it.... i'll do anything for you...
i know its quite late until i realized that i have to take my study seriously...form 2 second semester..
i take 1 year and a half to do so... its that hard for me to change my attitude...
however... once i got 3.5 and above, really the moment that i don't wanna let go..
i was like >> FINALLY!! i got the chance to actually feel like i do belong in that school and half of me finally becoming your dream daughter..
YES... im proud of myself.. but nothing can make me more proud other than making you guys happy with my grades.. i enjoy to the the proud smile on your face... i'll do anything to see that smile...
so... i keep up with my study for the next 3 years and i try hard to focusing more on my study rather than my co-curriculum..

and this year... im going to turn 18... im studying at Taylor's uni with the scholarship that offered by Mara..
and my dearest....
you guys still don't have any faith on me?
am i that bad?
i understand that you were worried of my safety and all that just like the other parents....
but if even my parents didn't trust me... then who will??
i cried for the whole night when i know that you don't trust me..
but now i realized that crying is not gonna change anything...
i promised myself that i'll work hard to prove to you that im already grow up...
 i always be your lil girl..
but this lil girl can take care of herself already... ;)  you don't have to be that worry..
i'll prove it to you... :)
i promised to you that i'll make you proud..
i'll make it up for you..

anything for you mum and dad.. :)